Ouch!

So I went for a run this evening, and I decided I would be smart and take a Gatorade with me since it was in the mid 90's or so. Well, it did little to help me get my mind off of everything, because carrying the Gatorade was making my tingling hurt so badly. I was constantly readjusting. Currently my hands feel very tight. That's not something I have been experiencing much; however, tingling and tightness does not make for a great combo.
I just finished watching the Braves game (they beat the Cubs 5-4!!). I was really enjoying the fact Heyward hit his first career grandslam. Then a thought hit me and I realized how depressed I am becoming while having to wait on all of this: the thought came to me that if whatever tests they run come back that I have MS, it is very likely I will never get married. I have seen what my dad has dealt with, and I simply don't see how that would be fair to do that to someone. And, as much as I want a large family, I already have PCOS which scares me to pass along to my daughters -- I definitely don't want to risk passing along something even worse. I am "only" 25, but at the same time, I am beginning to hear that clock. I don't want to be that way. I have seen too many people marry people that are so wrong for them simply because they feel it is time. I absolutely refuse to be a part of that statistic, but that doesn't mean the thoughts aren't there. I just have so much weighing on me right now and day in and day out things are getting harder. The waiting is literally making me depressed. I am crying all the time not knowing what is going on and why all of this is happening. I am truly scared and instead of turning to God and others for help, I am turning away from Him and, in front of most people, am acting like everything is just fine.
I hesitate telling more people than already know, because I don't want to first of all worry them. Secondly, I don't want people contacting me because they feel obligated to check on me. Thirdly, I know that once I say the words "I'm being tested for MS", that person - no matter what the test results - will never look at me the same and will always wonder what may happen in the future. There are actually 5 people off the top of my head that I have considered telling, but I simply can't bring myself to do it. I just want to stick to those who know already. I just wish I had some outlet that would let me get this weight off my chest, because I'm suffocating..fast.