Answered Prayer?

It is like God knew I needed something to help get me out of this horrible slump I am in, and He did something about it. Even though I have wanted little to do with people lately, I was sent an email. It was sent out to many people, but it struck me particularly hard. It was from my old youth pastor saying that a member of his church (he now has his own church) was in need of a caregiver and has no family in the area. I don't know that I've ever jumped at anything so quickly. I don't even know why honestly. It just seemed like it would be perfect. Yes, I hate my current job. I LOVE being a nurse. The problem comes when I feel guilty for not being able to spend the time I want to with my patients. I keep thinking of all the things I need to be doing while they are telling me their life stories. But this will be one on one care for someone who...HELLO...just had surgery. In my previous post, I explained I am an ortho/neuro nurse. I have yet to find out what kind of surgery this patient had, but I work with surgical patients constantly. I actually prefer them to my confused patients. I do love the confused ones sometimes, but they make for a difficult night at work, because they want to cuss at you, kick/hit/bite you, climb out of bed and fall, threaten you, tell you what a horrible person you are...oh and the one that gets to me the most...tells me one day I'll get what I deserve! I had a patient tell me that once, because I wouldn't give her more pain meds. Sorry, but when you go loopy enough to pull off your gown, throw it on the floor, rip out your IV, get yourself in a bloody mess, and get all sorts of confused...sorry, but ya need to get it out of your system. This one on one care may be just what I need this week. It is tentative right now, as I explained to the gentleman I talked to that I may possibly have an appt this week and don't know when. It will only be for two hours if I can manage to go, but a part of me wants to volunteer for an overnight shift or something. I don't know why I am feeling so moved about this patient, but I really am. I don't even know anything about her. I just want to help.