Orientee

It took me until almost 1am to realize there was a girl on orientation working with the nurse whose patient died this morning. That only makes me feel more sick to my stomach. I can't imagine having to come in as a brand new nurse, only on a certain floor because they wanted you to experience med-surg before being on your floor, and having to deal with a patient death. I don't even know how I'll handle my first patient death...but to be a BRAND NEW NURSE ON ORIENTATION???? I hope she's ok. Unfortunately, I will probably never see her again.